When it is God who made the way, no one can deviate. Take my story as how i became a worship leader an example:

Before I became a song leader, I was already a back-up singer for many years (since I was in my second year in highschool). It’s far far from my imagination to become a worship leader. Two years ago, everyone’s been telling me that it’s time to step up and accept God’s original plan for me. I would only reply with a smile and reason out to myself that God wouldn’t want someone who’s not yet ready spiritually, which I think is true. God wants a heart that is willing, compliant and unforced. I didn’t have that heart then. I wasn’t ready yet, I was scared.

On the other hand, I also thought the fear that I had then, could be Satan’s plan to give me hesitancy. Because he doesn’t want me to be used for God’s ministry he would present me all sorts of reasons and lies that would frighten me and would make me more defiant to God. That was not an easy situation to face. For months, I’ve been running away. But God instilled His plan. The more i refuse, the more our church leaders became so persistent. waaaah! The mighty gates of heaven opened a way, where I can’t elude. haha… I can’t remember exactly what happened but an overview was, the music team had a dilemma of who’ll be the song leader for one Sunday Service, I’m not so sure now what’s all of our song leader’s reason that time..hehe, but that left me in position with no more arguments. It gave me the reason to accept the inevitable calling, of course, I can’t let the Praise and Worship suffer. And my first time to stand in front of the congregation, albeit small in number, came to passed. Woah!

Now, it’s been more than a year since I embraced my fate as a worship leader. It’s not easy though. Sometimes, I feel inadequate or I would think I’m just doing this out of obligation. I would hate myself for that. And it breaks me when I’m breaking God’s heart. It doesn’t glorify Him. How would I take these definitely wrong sentiments off of my system? All I want is to give God my whole best.

One day, as I was browsing the net, I came across a blog written by a worship leader entitled The Importance of Being a Worship Leader.

Quoting here the first paragraph which touched my heart:

Do you sometimes feel insignificant or inadequate as a worship leader? Worship has the potential to bring people before God, and worship leaders, like doorkeepers, assist by standing at the door and welcoming people into God’s presence.

Being a part of a music ministry or a worship leader tells me that we are called as God’s doorkeepers. It’s an amazing task for us. We are to open the door of God’s presence, to invite people’s hearts and to welcome the move of the Holy Spirit. Isn’t a wonderful job? But before we can draw other people near Him, we (the worship team) first should experience God, and first to be drawn to Him. What more significant position could there be, than to bring people before God in worship?

Being called as God’s Doorkeeper reminds me that God has given me a talent. A talent that I have to use only for his glory. I am called to serve God. It’s so amazing, I get to serve the King of kings. Wow! And as long as this gift remains in me, I will forever be His servant.